You planned what you'd eat today before you even opened your eyes this morning. You know exactly which foods you're allowed and which ones you're not. You've memorized the acceptable times, the right portions, the rules that keep everything from spinning out.
It's the one thing you can manage when everything else feels like it's slipping through your fingers.
The fight with your partner last night-you can't control that. The way your boss talked to you in the meeting-completely out of your hands. The fact that your mother still makes those comments every time you see her-nothing you can do. But this? What goes into your body? That's yours.
Except somewhere along the way, what starts as a need for control over food intake can lead to the disorder completely controlling you and the way you live your life.